Suicidal thoughts

A date, why? Dont tell me You're thinking about really do it when you just told me not to do it!?
It's same for me, for the first paragraph. But i try to hide it, i hide it on my arms, under long sleeves. I try to help cause im never helped, i try go look fine cause i want they to have good memories of me.
I hide my pain.
It's probably not the good solution but i do this.
Please, listen to me.
If you kyf, i sont survive. You know it??!!
Please.
And to laugh a bit, look at this: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=p7wjwnBLAsQ

Please ! No no no ..... We won't let go of you like that! Your loved ones know nothing, know nothing and do not have to guide your life towards an abyss! If you fall, half of us will fall too, you know that.
You promised, I know you hate that promise but you promised.
Stay alive.
I beg you.
Life.
Please....

Ton message nous inquiète, la mort étant la fin de la vie et pas une solution à tes souffrances actuelles. Les urgences de l'hôpital sont là pour toi, n'hésite pas à y aller. Tu peux également appeler le 147.

Courage, tu vas voir que tes souffrances peuvent disparaître avec l'aide des autres.
Les Admin CIAO

I will guess you speak a bit of english and since you live on France you speak french (use google translate/google traduction if needed)

Je te connais peut-être pas mais à chaque fois que quelqu'un dis qu'il veut se suicider ça me brise le coeur, car j'étais dans la même situation et je vivais une épisode très dépréssive. J'avais 2 plans de suicide et le deuxième était vraiment vraiment près à marcher. J'allais le faire, mais je me suis demandé un truc. Je me suis dis quelque chose. What if, what if life wasn't always like this? What if I restart my life. What if I told a trusted teacher what I'm going through? What if I moved to London got a job there, learned more english and made friends there? What if I make a new best friend and we decide to live for the rest of our lives together in the countryside away from all our problems? What if I lived a life that wasn't always shadowed with depression? Alors le jour prochain, je suis allée dire une prof et ça m'a changé la vie. She gave me all the support I needed and brought me to the social worker. I won't say, you'll have a similar experiences as me when you tell someone but I can promise you, life doesn't always have to be like this. You make what you want of your life. You can choose to restart any moment you feel like it.

Give me more detail about the relationship with your friends and why you feel this way. I can try to give you advice and support by talking with you.

Depuis ce que tu as dis je t'essaie de t'aider:
T'as pas besoin de tes amis, si ça te fait plus de mal que du bien. Les amis sont scencé te supporter et t'aider avec tes problèmes. Depuis mes experiences faut t'entourer des gens qui t'aideront et te supporteront.

You need people who will lift you up and help you with your problems. If they try to help but you still feel misunderstood, their intention is good and try understand that they care about you. Though don't feel guilty if you think you're selfish for not thinking they're there for you enough, you just need more comfort during this hard time in your life and that's okay!